This evening at Crossed Arrows park in Scottsdale there is a huge difference when I look at the sky. It is the same beautiful sky as always. The difference is me being here. Being off the leash of IPS, I did not have to ask permission to come here or put it on a schedule. I just decided to come here and did it, in full legal compliance. Listening to Russian Circles and sitting under a huge tree, it is an incredible feeling. IPS has a ridiculously low completion rate, and is jokingly referred to as "in prison soon" because it is challenging. I owe this all to my higher power. I merely showed up and did some simple work (that I have a tendency to complicate sometimes) but it works. It really does. Ask me if I thought this would happen a year ago and I would have laughed at you. Ask me if I not only thought I would actually BE clean and sober, but if I would actually be living a happy life. Never thought it would happen.
Today I am grateful for this miracle.
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